Finding My Way Here

I'm genuinely thrilled about the growth I've experienced, especially over the past few years. Yet, some days I look in the mirror and feel like a stranger.

Even now, as I sit in my living room, watching the sun light over the sunny-side of Canmore, I'm struck by how different my life is from just 3 years ago. It's like I've achieved a dream but haven't quite figured out how to fully embrace it.

Recently, I've felt that familiar sense of being lost, slipping back into old patterns. This time, though, the trigger wasn't clear. 

Was it something lurking beneath the surface all along?

The pressures of my workplace and launching a small business had become overwhelming. I was juggling too many things and didn't know what to let go of. Stepping back from the business to focus on workplace stress was necessary, but finding the balance with my own personal growth felt impossible.

Sound familiar? …. Trying to do it all? 

I've learned so much about myself, yet the journey of understanding continues.

You see, I received a late diagnosis of ADHD. Years ago, I was diagnosed with Task Management Disorder and Auditory Processing Disorder, but I'm still unraveling how deeply these have shaped my life, and will continue to. It's not good or bad, just a complex reality.

The "unmasking" phase has been the toughest, bringing waves of regression in my symptoms. I've been digging deep to understand the triggers behind the anger, emotional dysregulation, and imposter syndrome that surface.

Amidst all the changes, I'm on a journey to reconnect with myself and stay true to who I am.

This blog series is a way for me to document my experiences as someone diagnosed with ADHD later in life. Like many others in my generation share this experience. I want to share my process of acknowledging and understanding this diagnosis. 

My aim is to build awareness for those who want to understand a loved one, a colleague, or even themselves better. I'll share what I've learned, what has worked, and what hasn't. While many of us neurodivergent individuals have similar threads in our stories, our individual journeys and life lessons are incredibly diverse.

Join me as I explore what I believe is my bigger calling in this wonderfully chaotic and serendipitous life.

This is me, raw and unfiltered, just authentically me.

Thank you for being here.

Warmly,

Sara Anne Maitre